Journal entry from this morning, 12/4/21

So anyway...my day to day journaling is in my planner, so I'll leave all that there. I'll just say that I love my life - I've had moments of re-connection with God because of my worship & gratitude & praise to Him. Also moments of needing forgiveness & mercy & being ashamed & guilty, of course. But one night a few weeks ago when I felt like a dirty worm crawling in shame up to the throne with my head bent low in my lap, I began to pray - in my approach as it was. And God said "Lift up your head, my daughter" & proceeded to encourage me in His Love & in the only way He can. The LOVE of God is indescribable. The grace & love that I receive is something I can't write in words. And it makes me want to do better. Do more...be more. For Him. And I know I fail, but that's because of MY expectations of myself...which can be unrealistic at times. And I do fail, but I'm learning that God sees me differently than I could ever see me. And He's changing me day by day - by His power & for His purpose...to LOVE others.